DAY ONE - BOULDER, CO
Journal Entry Nov 6th, 2017
"Arrived in Denver - I love solo travel. I love talking with strangers. As a stranger I get to carry an air of mystery - transience. A ghost - a past life visiting a new place looking for the soul of the people."
DAY TWO - DENVER, CO
Journal Entry Nov 7th, 2017
"On a River bank in Denver - Water is Life -
I should be drinking more water, but am distrusting of what's in it. Where is clean water - do our processing plants do a good job? Should really get a water test kit.
"I'm doing a lot bu -- and I can do more" (My former roommates and my aunt have told me that I use but a lot in conversation. Since then I've taken my aunt's advice to use "and" instead of "but" when speaking and writing. It's good advice.)
I decided to sit down and write because I thought about calling someone or looking at my phone. Solitude. Words of Tarkovsky about the benefits of solitude. Being OK when I'm alone.
My translation of the video:
"I just want to tell the young people to learn to be in Solitude. To love to be alone with yourself. (Russian word for being alone is based off the word for ONE). The tragedy of youth is it tries to unify around very noisy experiences, it's very aggressive - the desire to unify to not feel alone is uncomfortable, it's a symptom. A person should learn from childhood to be by themselves. Not to say that they should be lonely, but to be able to be not bored in solitude (Russian word for bored implies "missing", as in the context of "I miss you" ) because a person who is bored in solitude is within danger."
DAY 3 + 4 - ROCKIES HOT SPRINGS AND WATERFALLS
"Be in the moment with Joy.
Water is Life.
I wish you love, not like the sun for it burns.
Not like the wind for it escapes,
But like the sky, for it is endless."
DAY 4/5 - TEA BUS IN DENVER, FLIGHT BACK HOME
Journal Entry November 6, 2017
"On a plane back to Atlanta. A wonderful and very necessary trip. "Be in the moment with Joy"
The fire. Warm bodies.
Full moon. Bright white.
Alec - from Donetsk.
Infinite gratitude to the energy of Colorado. It has worked its healing magic on me. I am focused and clear. I must actively maintain that state of mind for my own good."
Finished the tea bus video as soon I got back from Denver with some footage that I got there
A WEEK AFTER GETTING BACK I WRITE A POEM
"An Apple of Blood and Ash" - November 12, 2017
"Yugen: a profound awareness of the universe that triggers a deep emotional response"
A membrane - thin layer separating
the reality of me and you
that flow of energy
the need for empathy
solitude - loneliness
roots - rooted
ancient blood - a deep well - reflection
listen, listen, listen
to women - the feminine energy is healing us
waking us up
show me how to see - rid me of the demons
we have always lived with them - made offerings to the dark spirits
empathy - realigning
"desire must be embedded in empathy"
of the stars
where are you from - the stars, Ukraine
star child - earthling
Joy is a waterfall in my heart
Receiving Annelises's earrings before she pierces my ears with a needle at my kitchen table
"Yes" - Annelise
An apple of blood and ash
"The least dangerous thing, in meditation, is 'seeing' which dispenses with think thinking words" p 115 The Passion According to G.H.